Something great is happening...

Something great is happening. something just totally unbelievable and awesome is taking place. Like, a smile is inside of me as I write this. My whole being is just smiling and tingling with excitement. I am starting to really love myself. I am starting to be extremely comfortable in my skin and truly love and accept ME! IT is an awesome and revolutionary feeling. See, I'm a little different. I've always been different from pretty much everyone around me, in my life. I would mostly keep my thoughts and my feelings to myself because they didn't match what everyone else around me was saying, thinking, and feeling. On pretty much everything. The only way I felt really comfortable expressing myself was through my dress, my style, my makeup, and my secret impromptu concerts I would give my cat, my pillows, bed, wall, whatever would listen. I've held myself captive for waay too long. I don't know . The result has been a lot of missed opportunities, lost loves, and just too many memories of doing it halfway, not all the way. Starting and not finishing. I am the notorious starter. It's even evident in my writing. I always have awesome intros and struggle with the conclusions. I have all these amazing ideas and don't carry them through. Maybe its the getting older, wiser, more mature. I can pass up parties cause I know there will always be dope parties. I can pass up that sale in lieu of saving for a house or something that my daughter needs cause there will always be great sales. But what I can no longer pass on is me, doing me. You only get one you, one lifetime, one chance. Get it mommy.